i feel so terrible last week.
i think i am a very very*infinte sentimental and emotional person.
i take things very seriously mostly everything.
school last week was totally horrible.
almost had a breakdown..
i was glad that i talk it all out with a teacher in school.
but i still very terrible..i have no idea why..
i just feel that it would rain so that i can think about things going on around me..but it seems that it is not going to rain so i think i will go do swimming..haha..anyways.. i feel that
my home where i feel totally uncomfortable at times with my relatives around..and with all the gossiping around here and there..which is just so lallala..sighs..
my friends that i am glad to have..they are always around when i needed them but some of them are worrying me..trying to reach out and help them but feel really bad because i can't seem to be helping them but only giving them more worries..and i feel that i shouldn't be feeling so terrible because i have a friend who is going so much more than me who takes things in such a way that i cannot..i wonder why i cannot do it..i am so screwed..totally..
my academic work..i am like totally lost in some subject though i understand my accounts a little more better now but still lost..haha..i am still doing fine with the rest of the subject expect for CHINESE!!it's killing me..though i thought i have made just a tiny little improvement..
i seriously have to learn to take things in a way that is totally light..but i have been trying to do it about i think 2 years now..but everything is just not working out..sighs..all that i can keep myself going is this phrase in my mind..bitterness 1st then comes sweetness in life which comes later..