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today i am like fire and water-mostly water-
just as schduled went to meet my cousin to pass her my camera and her letters-
i had two hours of being alone so i decided to take the mrt to pasir ris and back to bugis to meet another cousin to do shopping with him x)) i was like water travelling from the river out into the sea.haha.on the way there and back i had no mp3 or storybook i did some thinking not some lotsa!!abt myself.am i a very sensative person?i can't take jokes why because i dun know how to answer them?always very serious about things in life.not putting myself into others shoes only caring for my own.living in the world of my own i am no different from my lil brother.keep thinking of the past and not getting on with life.there's someone out there whose helping you but you sometimes listen to his/her advice.and the person is really nice.understands every moment of your life.your feelings.your pain and shares almost everything with you.a really rare and wonderful friend.really fortunate to have a friend like this.here i am like little raindrops falling from the sky.falling right down.this is when tears rolled down my cheeks-
anyways on the way to bugis is where warmth comes i gave my seat to an elderly.
i am filled with fire within me as my aunt whom i have been sleeping in the same room for almost all my life says i am rude.no manners.and thinks that i am a kinda of person like have money talk no money don't talk sort of person.am i like this sort of person??please tell me.am i? am i?am i?your dad comes home from working under the sun for a whole day from 6am to almost sometimes 10 at night and seeing him sometimes really aches your heart.your mum is worried almost abt everything abt you from your education to your health not only that and the family and you try to keep her relax by massaging her and bringing her shopping and everything.your aunt whose spouse whom left the world months ago and have not been sleeping lately since his death so you and your brother have been trying to get her to sleep by keeping her company and happy all the time but she still can't let go.your grandma thinks you are a child who only knows how to complain and complain and not putting in effort to bond with the family and always turning the house upside down.your maid you are just speechless abt her.yepps :D tears are rolling and rolling and rolling down and down-
what you do??
i just want to b like a little girl blowing all my troubles away and blowing bubbles of joy.